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Now what?

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Remember that post ending scene in Finding Nemo? The scene where all the fish succeeded in getting themself back to the sea, but still trapped inside the plastic bag, and one of the fish said: "Now What?". Hilarious scene. Yet, at the same time, also sad. Well, I can proudly say that line too: "NOW WHAT?" After all of those years being involved with you, your issues, mine, you as one of those issues of mine, and me as the problematic girl with the problematic you... (Hey, it's issues-ception!) Ok, stop it Dee. Well yeah, after all of those years back and forth with you, I'm literally saying the "Now What" line over and over again in my head lately. I felt like I had no purpose in life now. No motivation, Nothing to expect. Because finally it is over. It's really over. Like overly over. What do I do with my life now? I hate you. I did. No, I do. I still do. If you put yourself on my shoes, I guess you would have done the same t...
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The Aftermath

Well. Hi. It's been years since I write, eh? Well... life's been busy... Or that's what I pretend to be, busy. I need distraction and I got it a lot from work. Life's been good too. There are some changes in life here and there. But, you're still here. Wonder why... A friend of mine told me to write what I feel, or my mind will be stuffed by crazy-stupid-silly things about you that can drive me crazy. So here I am. Back in the corner of some cafe listening to old jazz trying to write what's on my mind. Here we go... -D
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It's always been you, J. Always.
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Me Before You

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No. It's not about the movie. Or the book. It's about me, before you... ...and after. Tiap benda di dunia memiliki hati. Dan, seorang penyair pernah berkata kepadaku, semesta sendiri pula memiliki hati. Aku memikirkan kata-kata itu- dan aku tidak mampu tidak memikirkan matamu. Sepasang matamu, bencana raksasa di kejauhan. Tidak berhenti membuat hidupku jadi benda kecil yang memiliki hati - Tidak Ada New York Hari Ini, 2016 Saya tau kamu bukan orang yang suka membaca. When it comes to based on the books' movies, you always said that you'd rather watch the movie than read the books, rite? Tapi saya menulis ini dengan harapan bahwa kamu, mau membacanya. Sebentar saja. Bukan, ini bukan novel setebal 600 halaman yang kamu hindari, atau Wall Street Journal yang bahkan bisa mengerutkan kening saya ketika saya baca. Tulisan ini isi hati saya. Apa yang sungguh-sungguh saya rasakan. Honest. Raw. And nothing, not even a si...
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